wo bu gan xin.
i dont want this to end either.
but its so difficult.
i cant even figure out why.
i spent my night thinking.
thinking why it became like this.
no answers came out.
just tears.
and i just cried the night away.
it hurt so bad.
every single thing we did.
it flashed across.
we were happy.
but i didnt feel that way.
why cant i be like everyone else.
able to figure out their problems.
perhaps the problem lies with me.
im the cause of everything.
i started it.
im greedy.
because i wanted forever.
but i guess forever does have an end.
i wish it didnt.
and i dont want it now.
i cant forget the bad things.
it just keeps finding its way here.
and i cant take this anymore.
i need you.
but i cant feel you.
your presence seems so far away.
everything seems so faded.
and this love of ours isnt going anywhere.
its stuck.

-
i remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming
except we always woke up
never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
-
tonight i've fallen
and i can't get up
i need your loving hands
to come and pick me up
-
i remember when
you came with me that night
be said forever,
that you would never let me go
but here i am again
With nothing left inside
know i don't wanna
but i gotta let you go
-

EDITEDD. # ;;
-
to joey dearest :
i'm sorry if i made you feel that way.
i know you might think its fading away.
but it isnt.
it truly isnt.
i dont know why i hurt you that way.
but im sorry.
i've hurt every single person around me.
i didnt mean it.
but it just happened.
it hurts me as bad as it seems.
and i cant take it anymore.
without any way of pouring it out.
i vent my anger on everyone.
this isnt goodbye.
i promise.
perhaps its because you werent there.
you didnt witness the daily happenings.
everything that happens to me every single day.
the pain i go through every single minute.
this life is killing me silently.
even if it may seem so nice and wonderful.
thats just on the outside.
deep down,
it just hurts.
this indescribable pain im going through.
i dont know why either.
i said i'd pull myself back.
but i think i'm failing.
i'm falling.
and there's nobody to pick me up.
thank you for being there.
when i'm down.
when i'm frustrated.
when i'm feeling just terrible inside.
even the best of friends have quarells.
its inevitable.
but i'm just sorry i put you through all that shit.
but i don't know how to express everything.
its just so difficult.
forgive me for all i've done.

wo bu gan xin.
i dont want this to end either.
but its so difficult.
i cant even figure out why.
i spent my night thinking.
thinking why it became like this.
no answers came out.
just tears.
and i just cried the night away.
it hurt so bad.
every single thing we did.
it flashed across.
we were happy.
but i didnt feel that way.
why cant i be like everyone else.
able to figure out their problems.
perhaps the problem lies with me.
im the cause of everything.
i started it.
im greedy.
because i wanted forever.
but i guess forever does have an end.
i wish it didnt.
and i dont want it now.
i cant forget the bad things.
it just keeps finding its way here.
and i cant take this anymore.
i need you.
but i cant feel you.
your presence seems so far away.
everything seems so faded.
and this love of ours isnt going anywhere.
its stuck.

-
i remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming
except we always woke up
never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
-
tonight i've fallen
and i can't get up
i need your loving hands
to come and pick me up
-
i remember when
you came with me that night
be said forever,
that you would never let me go
but here i am again
With nothing left inside
know i don't wanna
but i gotta let you go
-

EDITEDD. # ;;
-
to joey dearest :
i'm sorry if i made you feel that way.
i know you might think its fading away.
but it isnt.
it truly isnt.
i dont know why i hurt you that way.
but im sorry.
i've hurt every single person around me.
i didnt mean it.
but it just happened.
it hurts me as bad as it seems.
and i cant take it anymore.
without any way of pouring it out.
i vent my anger on everyone.
this isnt goodbye.
i promise.
perhaps its because you werent there.
you didnt witness the daily happenings.
everything that happens to me every single day.
the pain i go through every single minute.
this life is killing me silently.
even if it may seem so nice and wonderful.
thats just on the outside.
deep down,
it just hurts.
this indescribable pain im going through.
i dont know why either.
i said i'd pull myself back.
but i think i'm failing.
i'm falling.
and there's nobody to pick me up.
thank you for being there.
when i'm down.
when i'm frustrated.
when i'm feeling just terrible inside.
even the best of friends have quarells.
its inevitable.
but i'm just sorry i put you through all that shit.
but i don't know how to express everything.
its just so difficult.
forgive me for all i've done.