i hate school so bad.
and i hate my family.
limhuixiu's life is pathetic.
okay, apart from the fact that i get my wants satisfied ;
i dont get my needs satisfied.
i want the latest gadgets, like everyone does.
and i need my family's love, and the band's unity.
but hey, what do i get?
a fucked up place when i reach home,
and a band that needs constant reminders!
apart from that, the pressure is getting higher for STARS.
and because it's student initiated, mr paik and mr tan doesnt help much.
hey ho, im not saying they never help okay.
whatevers "/

papa isnt understanding.
he thinks he owns the world.
well, he doesnt! (d'uh)
he keeps asking me to do things for him.
hello, im not your fucking maid okay.
do it yourself.
whatever i ask you to do, you ask me to do it myself.
so why should i help you?
it doesnt matter if you're my father you know.
parents are a child's role models, aren't they?
and you are nothing but a gambler.
you bet on 4D, horses and football.
you think you're fucking rich?
NO, cause one day ;
when everything hits the ground, you'll go plunging too.
so dont blame mama for everything, mama should blame you.
cause you are nothing.
i respect you for who you are, and a gambler doesnt deserve my respect.

mr wong might really leave the band for good.
and everyone's trying to work hard,
but dear band, its not hard enough.
we must be more united.
juniors dont want mr wong to leave us either.
so yeah, you gta help us achieve greater heights.

school sucks.
the pressure from STARS hit me hard.
really hard.
it seemed so easy at first,
then came all the planning, arguments and budgets.
the class just doesnt seem to understand what we're doing for them.
1/2, you guys are horrible.
we used to rock, what happened?
tell me, wont you?
yesterday at giant, ernest had some sort of mood swing i guess.
he didnt speak much.
well, i wasnt in a good mood either.
cause a twerp was there.
and she sucked.
hello, the barbeque doesnt concern you ;dumbass.
you wanted to come of your own accord.
so, dont try acting clever.
cause you're not.
you're just a typical kiasu dumbass!
for goodness sake, if you're so naggy, get lost then.
nobody's keeping you here.
yeah, whatever.
i shouted at the boys, 'cause i was too pressured.
sorry, i didnt mean it.
i shouted at almost everyone that went against me.
okay, i was a slut for the whole day.
i dont like being a slut, its bad.
=(

and of all days, today.
why why why must it be on friday the 13th.
its really unlucky.
was on the verge of stabbing myself during recess.
oh, why didnt i?
oh yeah, cause im a stupid bitch. :/
then i went back to class.
and cried silently, trying to go unnoticed.
but hey, people still found out.
i dont even know if people who were close to me knew.
eh wait, i dont have close friends.
-.-
cause everything's a fucking facade.
nothing really matters.
cause its just so damn fake.
fake.
fake.
fake!
yonling was holding my hand, and said the usual "dont cry".
which induced more tears on xudong's table.
sorry, boyfriend.
rausyan was shocked, apparently.
and justina, qingyi and wenbin crowded around.
the rest of the world died.
fuck.
after the break up, i said i wouldnt cry ever again.
and there i was, crying like some idiot.
limhuixiu, you really dont deserve to live.
you dont, you should die a horrible death.
you should get stabbed brutally and die a painful death.
fuck you, me.

i hate school so bad.
and i hate my family.
limhuixiu's life is pathetic.
okay, apart from the fact that i get my wants satisfied ;
i dont get my needs satisfied.
i want the latest gadgets, like everyone does.
and i need my family's love, and the band's unity.
but hey, what do i get?
a fucked up place when i reach home,
and a band that needs constant reminders!
apart from that, the pressure is getting higher for STARS.
and because it's student initiated, mr paik and mr tan doesnt help much.
hey ho, im not saying they never help okay.
whatevers "/

papa isnt understanding.
he thinks he owns the world.
well, he doesnt! (d'uh)
he keeps asking me to do things for him.
hello, im not your fucking maid okay.
do it yourself.
whatever i ask you to do, you ask me to do it myself.
so why should i help you?
it doesnt matter if you're my father you know.
parents are a child's role models, aren't they?
and you are nothing but a gambler.
you bet on 4D, horses and football.
you think you're fucking rich?
NO, cause one day ;
when everything hits the ground, you'll go plunging too.
so dont blame mama for everything, mama should blame you.
cause you are nothing.
i respect you for who you are, and a gambler doesnt deserve my respect.

mr wong might really leave the band for good.
and everyone's trying to work hard,
but dear band, its not hard enough.
we must be more united.
juniors dont want mr wong to leave us either.
so yeah, you gta help us achieve greater heights.

school sucks.
the pressure from STARS hit me hard.
really hard.
it seemed so easy at first,
then came all the planning, arguments and budgets.
the class just doesnt seem to understand what we're doing for them.
1/2, you guys are horrible.
we used to rock, what happened?
tell me, wont you?
yesterday at giant, ernest had some sort of mood swing i guess.
he didnt speak much.
well, i wasnt in a good mood either.
cause a twerp was there.
and she sucked.
hello, the barbeque doesnt concern you ;dumbass.
you wanted to come of your own accord.
so, dont try acting clever.
cause you're not.
you're just a typical kiasu dumbass!
for goodness sake, if you're so naggy, get lost then.
nobody's keeping you here.
yeah, whatever.
i shouted at the boys, 'cause i was too pressured.
sorry, i didnt mean it.
i shouted at almost everyone that went against me.
okay, i was a slut for the whole day.
i dont like being a slut, its bad.
=(

and of all days, today.
why why why must it be on friday the 13th.
its really unlucky.
was on the verge of stabbing myself during recess.
oh, why didnt i?
oh yeah, cause im a stupid bitch. :/
then i went back to class.
and cried silently, trying to go unnoticed.
but hey, people still found out.
i dont even know if people who were close to me knew.
eh wait, i dont have close friends.
-.-
cause everything's a fucking facade.
nothing really matters.
cause its just so damn fake.
fake.
fake.
fake!
yonling was holding my hand, and said the usual "dont cry".
which induced more tears on xudong's table.
sorry, boyfriend.
rausyan was shocked, apparently.
and justina, qingyi and wenbin crowded around.
the rest of the world died.
fuck.
after the break up, i said i wouldnt cry ever again.
and there i was, crying like some idiot.
limhuixiu, you really dont deserve to live.
you dont, you should die a horrible death.
you should get stabbed brutally and die a painful death.
fuck you, me.