everything seems so horrible now.its like, all that i've ever loved was just some stupid facade.nothing was real, the love ; or the hate.it sucks. i dont like this life.i wna just die, but i then there's always that something that wants to pull me back.be it a friend, a lover, or just some stranger. ah, why cant i just jump off the building without any stupid thoughts.or maybe, just eat some pills. it'll be easier to die eh.gah, life's a nightmare that doesnt end. oh fuck.its bad enough that i cant study well, so why bother living.its just another stupid chore. leaving me with nothing in the end. i know im such a disappointment, but nobody seems to care.even if i've tried my best, everyone just doesnt see that.and so, whats the point of trying, when it doesnt get appreciated.its a fucking big waste of time. parents arent much help either, they just screw things up more.mama thinks im hopeless, useless.papa just couldnt care less. see, i shld rly just die. so the world'll be a fucking better place.I DONT WNA BE POSITIVE ANYMORE.quit deceiving myself, and just fucking die.- okay, about today's series of terrible events. got back 2 papers today. maths (paper 1) and chinese (paper 1 and 2). damn, im so gna fail maths okay. 8/20 isnt a nice start! what the fuck lah. chinese's okay. i want to see the rest of it. watched 'Hinokio' for CME. was nice, i guess. though abit crappy. 'Shutter' for literature, kinda freaky. the 'behind the scenes' were equally freaky. =\ i wonder why weird stuff happen to people filming horror shows. hmm, sad case. poor stunt man, he died. )= im gna fail biology like, dang! and geography's not gna be a nice thing too. im so gna drop to normal acadamic. walaooooo. i dont want ! tsk, im so gna die lah! walao walao walao! screw secondary school, fuck! gahh!!! - "it isnt just another game of love. "
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everything seems so horrible now.its like, all that i've ever loved was just some stupid facade.nothing was real, the love ; or the hate.it sucks. i dont like this life.i wna just die, but i then there's always that something that wants to pull me back.be it a friend, a lover, or just some stranger. ah, why cant i just jump off the building without any stupid thoughts.or maybe, just eat some pills. it'll be easier to die eh.gah, life's a nightmare that doesnt end. oh fuck.its bad enough that i cant study well, so why bother living.its just another stupid chore. leaving me with nothing in the end. i know im such a disappointment, but nobody seems to care.even if i've tried my best, everyone just doesnt see that.and so, whats the point of trying, when it doesnt get appreciated.its a fucking big waste of time. parents arent much help either, they just screw things up more.mama thinks im hopeless, useless.papa just couldnt care less. see, i shld rly just die. so the world'll be a fucking better place.I DONT WNA BE POSITIVE ANYMORE.quit deceiving myself, and just fucking die.- okay, about today's series of terrible events. got back 2 papers today. maths (paper 1) and chinese (paper 1 and 2). damn, im so gna fail maths okay. 8/20 isnt a nice start! what the fuck lah. chinese's okay. i want to see the rest of it. watched 'Hinokio' for CME. was nice, i guess. though abit crappy. 'Shutter' for literature, kinda freaky. the 'behind the scenes' were equally freaky. =\ i wonder why weird stuff happen to people filming horror shows. hmm, sad case. poor stunt man, he died. )= im gna fail biology like, dang! and geography's not gna be a nice thing too. im so gna drop to normal acadamic. walaooooo. i dont want ! tsk, im so gna die lah! walao walao walao! screw secondary school, fuck! gahh!!! - "it isnt just another game of love. "
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removing what was previously here, doesn't mean i love you any less (duh).
i've just figured, that whats past shall remain in the past, and we shall just, well, move forward.
and you're still the love of my life, always will be. sunny or not.
even if it rains, we'll have our brollies, kick water onto ourselves and laugh cause we're kids at heart.
spending these few months together, everything takes on a new meaning, even love itself.
everybody says this will end eventually, so be it. even if it does, i'll still have the many beautiful memories.
but lets not get there just yet, because we both know, this relationship isn't reaching a dead-end anytime soon.
thank you for always being there for me, even when you're tired and when i don't always seem pleasant to you.
thank you for staying by my side during storms, in sickness and in health, in happiness and in misery.
you make the sun i see shine with warmth, and the night sky twinkle with stars. "your love's put me at the top of the world."
your heart's safe with me, and i love you so, dear boyfriend.
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